Wedge Cut

I got a wedge cut, but it doesn’t look right. It is big. I wanted it to look like Shawn at the pool. She wears plaid shorts and polo shirts with the real frontways polo guy and not the fake sideways one. All of those pool girls are on swim team and so tan and play tennis. They can even do butterfly stroke. I can do butterfly three times, but they can do it up and down the pool over and over.

I play swim team with Meg. We walk around talking about how we are on swim team, and our boyfriends are totally on swim team. When we pass the tree with the butt, we always have to kick it. That is our rule. There is a tree on the way from her house to my house and it has this huge bump on the bottom that looks EXACTLY like a butt you must kick. You must stop whatever you are doing and turn and face the tree and kick it and then keep going. We used to think it was so funny, and it was our inside joke. Now we don't laugh but we still kick the tree butt.

Sometimes we walk around all the time and then meet up with Brynn and Tim and Rick and those guys. We kind of have a gang. We used to think Brynn was a priss—she is pretty and in sixth grade and we are only in fifth. But we do rule the school. Meg turned friends with Brynn and I did too. She is pretty and her hair all frizzy and a little ugly. She is best friends with all those guys.

Tim is my friend. He is in love with me. I like him but I don’t like him. He is a dork. When he stops coming to see me I get in a fight with him. He gave me a gold bracelet, and his big brother John told me to stop playing with his mind. My entire head turned red when he said that, because John is cool and he is friends with Rick and now I don’t think he likes me anymore. He is mad because I am not in love with his brother. Well fine. I gave the bracelet back and he gave it to his new girlfriend Tanya. Tanya has long blond hair and I do not want to hear her name anymore. Tanya has my bracelet. Tim is actually a player.

One day when I finally figured out my new 10-speed, I drove down there and they yelled ‘how’s that 10 speed working out for ya” and I couldn’t get my feet to slow down. I think they were laughing. I almost fell, but I didn’t. I was just shaking a lot and hit my crotch really hard when I tried to get off. It’s a boy’s bike. Nobody rides girl’s bikes, they are totally gay. I do not have control of my new bike, and my feet were moving really fast and I think they were laughing.

Rick is HOT. He is such a babe. He is like the guy from The Stray Cats. We all walk around and go play on the playground and do routines on the bars and smoke cigarettes. I might like to kiss Rick, but he is in High School and has real girlfriends. I want to do that kissing where your lips stay together but you move your head sideways and he moves his head sideways, like on Santa Barbara. Sometimes I practice on that wooden head on the wall at my Dad’s house when I am waiting for a ride.

I cut off my hair. I can't tell if I look at all cool or just like a boy. I don't look like Shawn at the pool. I don't even know what happened.